lol.

2008-09-19T23:00:10Z

I'm so dumb. I made this journal for the wrong reasons. That was when I was a sophomore... (I think) or a junior.... hmm, I don't remember. Anyway, that's not me anymore. I don't like to hate on people anymore. Juan is still my friend and Toni is still my friend, but I don't talk to either of them that much anymore. It's kinda sad, but stuff happens. You can't be close to all your friends all the time. I still love them all. They are wonderful. But such is life, with the high school graduation and the starting of new schools, I just don't talk to them much anymore. I can't write in this journal, because it makes me feel bad for all the things I said. Yes, I was insanely jealous and I won't say that I don't get insanely jealous anymore because I do, but now I know that its not their fault. People can't help who likes them. I had a habit of blaming everyone else for my mistakes. I still kinda do but not as much. I realize what I can improve on too. Anyway, I know Toni never read this, and I don't want her to know that I said all of this about her, but I would like to say sorry here. So Toni, I'm sorry. If you ever find this, I'm so sorry. I was young and impressionable. And we may never be close friends again but I don't think I'll ever have a reason to talk like this about you. Fuck, its almost four. Maybe I should call Elena and tell her not today. And tell her that I'm down for that quinceanera tomorrow. Why did I have to eat that peanut butter sandwich? Okay okay, I should start doing some of my own stuff. LIke on Mondays and wednesdays when we don't work out, i should Zumba it up some. And when we have a sudden cancellation, I should do that too, or do some sit ups in my room, or something.

I also don't talk to that Josh kid anymore but I'm glad about that.

friends only.

2006-10-30T01:27:18Z

hear me roar.

lol.

friends only.